Haunted memories

Where to begin.... I know I am very protective of my family and friends but on a certain level it would be cut off where I was able to step aside. Yet for one it has been difficult to do that with, in a way it's reassuring . I know u'll read this sometime or other so I just wanna say it's ok, I don't mind. Tonight during ur latest crisis I heard something that made it all click. In many ways u remind me of "M" , it's difficult to explain so let me try. In many ways I felt like she was my salvation, always trying to better herself. No matter how many times she got trampled on she never once said " screw this I'm done" rather " how can I do it ". So I guess subconsciously I see her in u and feel the need to be there to help you stand when u fall. Do not get this wrong this isn't a confession of love...we have already clarified on that subject. This is more of a desire that u understand where I truely come from, I guess in a way I kinda see u as my salvation as well... There is so many things I have in my past which I do not regret, that will always stain my hands. However the way I c it, if I can help u maybe, just maybe there is hope for me yet. Even if I have to go back to who I was to help chase away trouble-some things , I'll do it with no quams. So please know that I truly mean it whenever I say "no prob" or the like, ok this is starting to get too touchy feely on me. I'm out, peace