Back from my writing vacation

So it's been quite some time since I have been able to put any writings together. Even now I'm finding it difficult to get the juices going, I think its due to the fact that my life has become very stagnant. No work and all play has made this writer a very boring man, yet there has been some eventful turns this year. Some good yet most were bad. I have cut back on smoking drastically, my plan was to quit but things don't always work out the way you want. Though going from a pack a day to 2 packs a week ( at most ) is nothing to be ashamed of. I'm starting to cut back on my soda intake and switching it with arizona teas, it just finally seems like it time for that to happen. That's really all the good stuff, now for the bad. It has been over a year since I have worked, and this boredom is starting to make me go slightly more insane than normal. I'm 5 months away from being 29 and my life still has no sense of direction, or purpose. Then of there is the most troubling on a personal level, I have lost 3 people that I cared about this year. Every time I went to the funeral or home during the week of mourning I met the family members with my cool indifference. Which has re awakened my thoughts from earlier this year, I know people deal with grief differently. Yet I highly doubt it's normal the way my mind "copes" with these situations. Sleep for me is too hard to come by or shortly lived, catching only a few hours at a time. For now I thinking I'll just melt my brain with good old fashioned tv till I pass out. Goodnight